Since coming back to work… I feel very uncomfortable. Monday morning was my weekly Team progress meeting… my Director didn’t even look me… while i was away my line manager had told him i’m be moving off this project… which i only found out later.
In the afternoon got back in the office and had a chat with my line manager cos apparently something i said went out of context and kinda caused a big crisis in the department or was atleast one of the factors… already feeling low already i ask my line manager if it was just a good idea to just quit. At that point i felt even more low… My line manager said def no… so it made me feel slightly better.
After this she told me they are already hiring a replacement for me… and that the moving over to $£%£%% system is quite a big responsibilty and will take over a year alone to learn the system.
In the evening i thought about this alot and the next morning i told my line manager that i will just stick to where i am because i don’t think i can commit to such a important system and also it would mean dealing with BT again. So here i am back to sq one.
I plan to leave Healthcare IT for good.
This has affected me alot… I’ve been quite moody to a close friend of mine recently, there were 2 reasons for that but one was cos of whats been going on at work the other a personal thing… it really hurts when they say the famous phrase “you’ve changed”.
I’m sorry for being a twat.
Anyway… I’m taking everyday as it comes now…
