Today i had a really busy day for the first time… normally i never have nothing to do… kinda stressed me out… I literally was only in the office for a total of 30min today.

C*rner got back to me. They told me they can’t talk to me about a position until my manager write them a letter stating that I am exploring a career with them and “the exploration by means of my initiation.”

I really cant do that, if manager knew i was doing this they wouldn’t be happy at all. problem is they want to offer a more senior role for me… but i don’t think it would be in my interest to tell my manager that i wanna leave.

Tien says the role they have offered me is like a £32k a year position (which i would be very happy with) but how the hell am i gonna do this… i just don’t think it is worth the risk cos i may not even get the job.

So i guess i can’t go with them… it would not have been a problem if i worked somewhere else. but because the trust is a direct business partner they have to do it this way.

What have i got myself into!

I got till fri to really decide… but i think i won’t be able to get this letter… kinda has made me feel really down

Anyway this Weekend is gonna be so nice… its gonna be really hot… i think i’m gonna go richmond park… i think i need it…